Trust Issues

August 21, 2011

I don’t trust anyone… I can’t.

I want to believe you when you say that you care about me, but all I see is that man walking down your stairs as I walk in your door.

I want to believe you when you say you love me, but I can’t when you do things that damn me.

I want to believe you when you say that I’m the one you think about, but can’t believe it when I see a message from another man asking what you’re doing.

I want to think of you as my friend, but when I see you put me in bad scenarios and not care about anyone but yourself it makes me stray from you.

I want to believe you when you say that you don’t trust men because they’ve hurt you, but you do the same to me as they’ve done to you.

I want to believe the words that are released from your mouth, but your actions tell a different story.

I want to love you, but I know you will hurt me.

I want to be next to you, but I know you will do me in.

I want to give you my heart, but I know you will break it and walk over the remains.

I want to trust people but I can’t. I’ve been the victim one too many times and my brain and body are hell bent from allowing it to happen again.

I’m sorry if you find this creepy, disrespectful or typical man speech. It’s how I and many men and women feel.

We’re guarded… we feel like we have to be.

Because every encounter has the chance for catastrophe.

Trust issues.

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